Twilight Fan and Proud of It

Yes I am a Twilight fan. Yes I know you may think I'm crazy/stupid/juvenile. And guess what...I don't care.

I didn't start to read the books until after the first movie had been released on DVD. At that time all four books had been published. My oldest son was just over a year old. And I was RELUCTANT to get into something that seemed so beneath me (cuz I'm too cool for that). BUT...I seem to like the same sort of books my sister Amie and my mom like. Amie read them first. She raved so much Mom picked them up. Then Mom got excited for the movie after finishing the first book. And it was over for me.

I read all 4 books in 8 days. Halfway through the first book, I handed my son to my husband. "He's all yours until I finish this book." I read in the mornings, breaks at work, after supper. I did not put it down. I COULD not put it down. Amie had agreed to loan me her books when Mom finished. Mom wasn't fast enough. Ten minutes after finishing Twilight (and giving Logan a nice little kiss and hug), I was off to Wal-Mart to pick up New Moon and Eclipse.

That's how it went for just over a week. I lived, breathed, slept Stephenie Meyer.

And now I find myself doing the same thing with the movies. We have a TV in our bedroom and all the movie channels Dish Network has to offer. And lately you can find at least one of these movies on around the time I go to bed. And I always tune in.

I know Kristen Stewart isn't Katherine Hepburn. I know the plot line isn't Shakespeare. But I. Am. Hooked.

What is it? Why do I like it so much?????

I am a romantic. I think I'm still a teenager in that emotional department. I imagine how nice it would be if my husband would sing me a love song when it comes on the radio and confess how it reminds him of me. I am also an emotional creature. I cry at church just from the message of a song during Praise and Worship. And, poorly written as it may be, this series pulls at those two strings in me perfectly. I can relate to teenage Bella. I always felt like the guy I was in love with at the time was the world; I believed I would do anything for him, as he would for me. What girl wouldn't want a man who is strong, devoted, enamored with her?

My only fear, or hesitation, is the possibility of setting up expectations. What man COULD be Edward? He's a fantasy, an unrealistic vision that can never be. And measuring up a true male to those standards would make any of them run.

I'm lucky in that I have a truly amazing husband. With all that life has handed him, he is the most level-headed person I know. He is my Edward.

So, I'm gonna go now and watch Eclipse. Because it's on. And the big fight is about to happen. :-)